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[apuckalypse]

it matters to me
if you aren't able to be yourself because of [ me

....it's not about him] everything that happened years ago

[notapancake]

[Mrgh.]

It's not anything you need to worry about, okay? Anything to do with it is on myself.

[apuckalypse]

im already worrying
and not answering is basically answering

[notapancake]

Look.

Leo told me I could relax, so I've been... Trying?

[apuckalypse]

trying to stop masking?

[He doesn't get how it works, but... maybe it becomes a subconscious habit that can't be helped, eventually? That's...]

[notapancake]

Something like that, yeah.

[UGH he didn't want to even imply it, but here we are.]

[apuckalypse]

ok

[Another pause, shorter this time. So sensei knew, too. Sensei was okay with it? Sensei never told him, either...]

can you try with me too?

[notapancake]

[There's a pause on his end now, because well... He doesn't know if he can, Casey is like. He needs to be a certain way around Casey, that's just how things are.

Also boy, it would probably bother Casey to know that, probably, all the turtles knew about it. Not just sensei.]

I'll do my best, okay?

[apuckalypse]

[Yeah, he's thinking now that it's very likely all the adults knew, and it's just him left in the dark. Because it's his fault. No one would want to tell a child that his beloved uncle only acts the way he does - not himself - out of necessity, for the child's sake.

He needs to do more. He needs to be better than this.]

that's all i can ask for
i want you to be able to relax, too
be yourself

[notapancake]

[He stops, and considers his reply.

... Because he wants to say "You might not enjoy who I am normally", totally unaware of how things are between Casey and his younger self. But he doesn't say that.]

Okay. But you have to stop worrying about it, it's not something that you should worry about anyway.

[ALSO UNAWARE OF THE GREAT TURTLE BLOOD DRIVE CASEY IS DOING.]

[apuckalypse]

[Casey waits. He knows it's not easy. He's relieved when he gets that response, though.]

i can... also try?

[He cannot wholesale shut the worrying off, it's built in. Especially when everyone gives him so much to worry about, and he has that teenager overactive and overthinking brain. But. He will try.]

[notapancake]

That's all I can ask of you.

[Which is true, he can't actually force Casey to stop. But he can do what he can to make it less worrisome?]

[apuckalypse]

ok. sounds good

[....]

was any of it
did you
was it real

[....]

about younger donnie. can you also try to cut him a little slack? hes not masking and hes kinda awkward but hes also gone through a lot, hes still a kid too. i want to get along with him and work with him. even if you think hes wrong, what he did cant be undone. its enough that he wont do it again

[notapancake]

[BOY.

As to his younger self... He is delayed in his response.]

Well I can't really do much with him, he's blocked me on the relic and I doubt he'll want to see me in person.

And good, if he wants to touch my research he can talk to me instead of trying to claim it as his own.

[apuckalypse]

folkmore loves to throw people together against their will. please just think about it

that was kinda dumb of him to say, esp to your face. but like i said, we're all stupid kids sometimes

[notapancake]

I'm not going to kill him, if you're that worried about it.

[Depending on how Donnie acts, he might be convinced to not shove the younger turtle's spirit into a toilet brush.]

I don't recall ever being that stupid.

[apuckalypse]

i wasnt super worried about that, but good to know

should i ask sensei to be sure? :P

[notapancake]

Leo probably doesn't remember anything from back then! So his opinion is invalid!

[apuckalypse]

i think i should check just to be sure

[notapancake]

It's just going to be lies and slander, Junior.

[apuckalypse]

but how can i be certain if i dont check

[notapancake]

Because we both know Leo, he'll lie when it amuses him.

[apuckalypse]

not always
he'll lie when it amuses me, too

[notapancake]

Thus making him an unreliable source, Junior.

[apuckalypse]

ok but counter-point: a story about you guys being stupid teens, true or not, WILL probably make me laugh

[honestly he could use that right now. maybe a funny lie will feel better than the lies of omission he's apparently been getting his entire life.]